Faraway

 

"Will we ever lose contact?" I asked him, upon listening to him talking about his ex. 

"When one of us dies, we will for sure..," he said, "but that's not what you're asking." 

I could feel a pause before he continued, "I have no answer to your question. Do you?"

"I don't either, but that's the beauty of life, isnt it?" I smiled, trying to grasp this new feeling: that someone could at the same time feel both so helpless but also hopeful.. 

"I could tell you one thing for sure, though. I hope that we can meet really soon." 

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"Moi aussie." 

No Matter What

time and distance,

like love,

perhaps are just the best features in life - 

they let us treasure each other

despite everything else.

-upon corresponding with him-

Rain..it's raining!

happiness, perhaps,

is only one umbrella away

on one rainy day,

I shelter in your hug,

and you place your heart in mine.

The Simplicity

I could feel the breeze from you

sweeping away all my worries. . .

The One in A Million

"Pick me. Choose me. Love me," she said with teary eyes.

There he just stood still, as he knew that he was as hopeless too. *

But to me, you're not an option.. 

*from the famous scene of Grey's Anatomy

The Dialogue

"Just someday, I'll bring the world. For you."

"The world? What for?"

"To make you happy. You don't want it?"

But you are already my world... 






*pic courtesy of http://www.flickr.com/photos/rkottonau/

The Mirror

And in the end,

loving you just makes me, 

me..

Everything About You

I like the way I can hear your heart-beat when I lay on your chest,

the way I can feel muscle when you hug me tight,

or the way I can smell your minty breathe when you're just this close to kiss me.. 

I like the way your eyes shine when you're looking at me,

the way your lips smile when you're listening to me,

or the way you turn away shyly when you told me you love me... 

So please understand that it's not just you,

or some little stupid and lousy things.

It's, everything about you. 

The Fairy-Tale

There's a happiness, hiding behind every tears you drop, waiting to come true.

All you need to do, 

is have some faith...  

The Sky and the Earth in You

 

 

Do you know that the sky has your smile?

Or that the sun in the morning is only perfect upon shining on your face?

 

Do you know that the earth has your warmth?

Or that the shelter in your chest is just the only place I rest all my dreams?

 

Do you know... ?

The Love Does Stay

 

 

I am not in a hurry. You shouldn't be too.

Let's take every step by every step. 

Do you know that every big move is started with a small baby step?

So I'd just be patient, and careful. 

I've spent my 25 years without you, so I won't mind waiting a little longer.

Love doesn't grow just in a day, a night. It needs time. 

I need time. We, need time.

 

Why don't we walk together, hand in hand? 

Hopefully, the road will be a little more cheerful, a little less lonely. 

Sooner or later, we'd reach the destination. 

What say you? 

You know, I'm smiling, thinking about the endless possibilities with you. 

I'm scared, but I am learning to be brave. Brave enough to trust my heart in your hand, that you will treat it carefully that you won't break it. 

I'm smiling, to the fact that you bring me happiness by just small acts. 

So, let's take time. Let's enjoy everything like we have endless tomorrow. 

See you tomorrow. :)

The End of an Era

Am I such a big fragile coward if I told you I just want you to be there whenever I turn my head around?

That I want you to be there, be scared with me, be happy with me, and everything?

Am I such a foolish childish stupid guy if I told you that I just want you to say that you'd still be there inspite? 

That you'd still love me even when I am being dark and twisty, and that we'd survive whatever it is?

Am I such a lousy dreamer if I told you that I want to stay for better and for worse? 

The Tape and The Glue

You remembered the tape and the glue you held on so tight?

The ones you used to re-attach your shattered heart. The ones you used to wipe away your tears. 

The ones you used to close your ears from the deafening silent voices.

The ones you have been counting on so you can walk again. 

It's okay to let it go.

Because you're now a whole person.  

It's okay to open your bandage. See and greet your scar.

Because now, you won't need them anymore.

It's okay to put everything behind, just behind.

Because then you'll be fine. You'll be even beter. 

Let him go, Ed.

The Un-spoken Wishes

 

 

That the fading shadow I saw from the corner of my eyes this morning, it were you.

That the text message that made my phone rang so loud, it were you.

That the pouring rain coloring the sky dark grey, it were you.

That this one mp3 I kept on playing, it were you.

That the one who would one day come knocking in front of my door, it were you.

The Memories were supposed to fade #2

"Can I come to your marriage?"

"Why do you want to come?"

"To make sure if you're happy."

"Stupid. It's not that I have another choice."

"I know. But you could at least have my blessing."

(a long hug)

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"How can I be happy if it's not with you?"

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"I'll bring another guy, perhaps. To let you see I could try to be happy. Or I'll just leave after I see you up there with your beautiful bride."

"I love you."

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"I love you, too." 

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The Memories were supposed to fade #1

 

 

"If one day, you don't love me anymore, what will happen to us?"

"We can still be friends."

"I dont wanna be your friend. I can't be your friend."

"Why?"

"Do you really need me to explain?"

"Well, nevertheless, there won't be such a day."

"How can you be so sure?"

(long pause)

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"Lets enjoy today and this moment more. Whatever happens, happens. Talking about it now won't be any useful. Besides, you're going to leave tomorrow."

The Things that Haven't Changed

To you, it was only a sea. To me, it was a place where my longing broke in to your shore, knocking in front of your shore, yet you never realized I had been there the whole day.

To you, it was only a wave. To me, it was an endless effort, coming in and being rejected for times, yet there was this solemn faith that someday you'd find me as charming as the sun you're bathing yourself with. 

To you, it was only a me. Someone who rode the same train with you and whom you could forget about soon as you got off and continued your life and probably met someone new whom you'd consider of settling down with. 

To me, I was an idiot who would fall so deep, so true, so mad for you, trying so hardly to swallow back the words that was supposed to be meant for you but I just couldn't manage to bring it out from my mouth. 

So I kept coming back.

So I would never be the beautiful rain evaporating from the sea, pouring down beautifully to you from the sky before sacrificing myself to the sun to be a rainbow to your eternity.

So I would never be the big tide that you'd surf on, that would bring your boat sailing towards the greatness ahead. 

And I just remained the same despite countless desperate wish...

The World of Our Own

You see the happy couples down there in the corner of the cafe?

You see those people hugging together when they hit the dance floor?

You see the shiny and healthy smiles in their faces? 

You notice how they have this content eyes, like they have had everything that matters?

You notice how they are once again whole, as if someone has put the last missing piece to their jigsaw of life?

You notice how cute they are when they're completing each other's sentences? 

I do.

I see you in them. 

I notice us in them. 


So hold my hands.
I'll take you there... 

The Place is Not That Far

Do you remember the song we used to sing together, me never hitting the right note while you with a perfectly perfect voice? 

Do you remember how you used to clap your hands happily whenever we finished a song, and then you'd turn to me and tell me how much you like hearing me singing because I once told you that you're the only one whom I'd sing to? 

Do you remember how nervously you used to pick a song to go solo, how carefully you then sang it for me, and how earnestly you looked at me as if no one else would matter to you for you really wanted to make sure that I had those stars in my eyes listening to you crumbling my heart? 

It doesn't matter if you don't. 

I'd run, I'd crawl, I'd swim a hundred rivers, I'd climb a thousand walls, 

just to find a way to get to where you are. 

Then I'd tell you that there's no place that far. 

I'd remind you of everything we used to have. 

Take me back, would you? 

*inspired by Westlife's No Place That Far

The Labyrinth With Us Inside

The sun keeps rising every morning, even when the night tirelessly tries to drown it back to the darkness.

The rain keeps on falling to the ground, flowing back to the river, to the sea, and back to the sky, even when the clouds have already learnt well to let them go.

The tidal waves keep breaking in before the beach, even when the shore has made it really clear he doesn't want them. 

And eventually love is supposed to not come just for once. 

There is this cycle we're going through circling and just someday, when the time is right, the place is right, and everything else doesn't really matter anymore, I'll meet you. I'll see you. I'll love you like I have always done.